It all started on a Sunday in our family room, kneeling in front of the couch. Dad was on his knees beside me. A half-eaten Sunday dinner was cooling on the dining room table…
january 20, 1974
The family, just home from morning worship, was sitting down for a meal of roast and potatoes, and I was all tied up in knots.
About an hour and a half earlier I had a kung fu grip on the back of the pew in front of me and my knuckles were stretched white. I was sitting with my mother a third of the way back on the outside left, facing the platform. Forrest Hills Baptist Church was more packed than normal.
We had a guest speaker that morning, Monroe Parker. I don’t remember too much about the sermon, only that he used scary illustrations about people who died without Jesus. On hospital beds, in car wrecks, every sort of life-shortened tragedy.
It was revival week with the evangelist, so the altar was mostly filled with weepy folk. As the choir started through another verse of Softly and Tenderly, I leaned out into the aisle, still gripping the pew. I chanced a quick look at my mom, who nodded and smiled knowingly, and that was all the motivation I needed to join a trickle of souls to the front.
Ann Plant was an altar worker known well by our family. She met me, saw how miserable I was, and hastily led me to an open spot on the platform steps.
It was already assumed I was saved (I was a really good kid) so she led me in a “rededication of life” prayer. She smiled and hugged me and I went back to my row where mom waited. I forced a smile because I still felt heavy inside. Where was that lightness of step and brightness of spirit I expected?
On the drive home from church, I remember sitting in the backseat between my two sisters. I was very quiet. Positioned with my feet on the hump, I leaned forward and stole glances of my sad self in the rearview mirror. I could see dad‘s eyes occasionally sliding over to meet mine.
Finally, he furrowed his brow and asked if I was okay. I didn’t look okay. It was all so very discomfiting.
For a thirteen year old kid, a trip to a church altar and a vulnerable prayer with an adult should at least earn you some level of peace. Not me. I didn’t feel fixed.
praying with dad
Sunday dinner was not in the least bit enjoyable for a boy who liked to eat. I pushed vegetables around the plate with my fork, worrying over stuff like being killed in a car wreck and lost for eternity. Pretty out-there stuff for a thirteen year old.
Midway through the meal dad and I exchanged looks. He saw the misery on my face. I felt lost and told him so. He looked at mom and she said lunch could wait. Rising from his place at the head of the table, dad set down his napkin and pushed away.
“Let’s go into the family room, buddy” he said kindly. “I think I know what you need.”
I followed dad to our sofa and took my place beside him on my knees. There, father and son side by side, settled the matter of my soul once and for all. I started to cry. It felt for all the weight of the world that what we were doing was right. I exhaled all my pent-up breath and answered my dad, phrase by phrase, in the sinner’s prayer.
Two minutes later, we were done. Dad hugged me and told me I was saved and that I shouldn’t doubt it ever again. And honestly, by the good grace of God, I never have.
There’ve been some touch-and-go moments in my life, but, forty-eight years later (and counting!), the testimony holds because Jesus holds me.
This is my story, and this is my song:
a salvation hymn
I love GOD because he listened to me,
listened as I begged for mercy.
He listened so intently
as I laid out my case before him. Death stared me in the face,
hell was hard on my heels.
Up against it, I didn’t know which way to turn;
then I called out to GOD for help:
“Please, GOD!” I cried out.
“Save my life!”
GOD is gracious—it is he who makes things right,
our most compassionate God.
GOD takes the side of the helpless;
when I was at the end of my rope, he saved me.
Psalm 116:1-6, The Message
I would be so blessed if you would share me with your online communities! Thank you!
Oh Scott loved reading your sweet testimony as a boy! Today is my spiritual birthday -46 years of knowing Jesus! Love your writing! You truly are such a blessing!
Vonda, dear me! You could knock me over with a goose feather! What a blessing (and privilege) to receive this great message from you. Apologies that I’ve been an absentee blogger since you sent it…I’m very thankful for the history and memories our families have shared. Thank you for this giant blessing! Love to you and your beautiful people!
It was such a wonderful time of remembering with the Lord this morning, Beth. There’s no life worth living unless Jesus is in it. Thank you my dear sister!
Happy 48th! I love this story. Makes me remember your earthly dad and smile. Makes me thankful for your praying grandmother. Makes me grateful to the GOD Who sees 13 year old boys and knows their future and woos and calls and pursues and fully saves. So grateful! Love you, my dear brother!
Thank you Kelli! I’m grateful you know so much more of the story and you’re still my friend (lol!), that you make space for me in your story, and make me want to submit to the Editor’s changes, big and small. Love you! Hey, let’s all celebrate with a road trip!
Thanks so much for visiting! Please join me again at the table of grace soon 🙂
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Yep. Needed to hear a Word through Scott. Thanks Brother
Thank you my good brother. Means so much to me.
We need to meet up again soon!
Oh! And happy spiritual birthday blessings to you!
Oh Scott loved reading your sweet testimony as a boy! Today is my spiritual birthday -46 years of knowing Jesus! Love your writing! You truly are such a blessing!
Vonda, dear me! You could knock me over with a goose feather! What a blessing (and privilege) to receive this great message from you. Apologies that I’ve been an absentee blogger since you sent it…I’m very thankful for the history and memories our families have shared. Thank you for this giant blessing! Love to you and your beautiful people!
Happy Anniversary!
Thank you so much! God is good!
Praise the Lord!!! We rejoice with you as each of us who know Christ reflect on that moment when we too, trusted Him as Savior!
It was such a wonderful time of remembering with the Lord this morning, Beth. There’s no life worth living unless Jesus is in it. Thank you my dear sister!
Amen!!!
Happy 48th! I love this story. Makes me remember your earthly dad and smile. Makes me thankful for your praying grandmother. Makes me grateful to the GOD Who sees 13 year old boys and knows their future and woos and calls and pursues and fully saves. So grateful! Love you, my dear brother!
Thank you Kelli! I’m grateful you know so much more of the story and you’re still my friend (lol!), that you make space for me in your story, and make me want to submit to the Editor’s changes, big and small. Love you! Hey, let’s all celebrate with a road trip!