two words that shape my faith

I’m not a Muslim because of two words. I have friends who follow the teachings of Mohammed regarding Allah, and I love them, but could never take their path.

These two words safeguard me from turning to agnosticism or atheism. I can’t fall away from the faith because of the way these two words are put together. I can admire some of the kinder gentler tenets and proverbs of various eastern religions but would rue the day before entrusting my eternal destiny to them.

Here they are, in all their glory. Sit before them and be amazed:

Jesus wept.

Call me an old softie, but I quite like a deity who feels what I feel. Isaiah promised a Messiah who “suffers when we suffer” (Isa 63:9). Paul didn’t say God merely pities us, he said the Father spills over with mercy and embraces us with smothering comfort (2 Cor 1:3).


Jesus is no remote deity, watching suffering from a safe distance. He is the God who inhabits our suffering.

– Rebecca McLaughlin


John, specifically, zeros in on the “I AM” episodes of Jesus in his gospel. When you see “I AM” in scripture your mind probably goes to burning bushes and almightiness, shoes-off zone, time’s-up for oppressive regimes, and the like. You envision an all-caps “LORD” not the lower case kind.

John’s gospel shows us the I AM-ness of the Almighty also allows space for himself to weep. Anger from deity we get, but sorrow? Tears?

Jesus is called “Man of Sorrows” in Isaiah and our Lord is not the least bit embarrassed by that designation. The powerful “I AM” is moved to tears and that moves me. As the Holy Spirit moved John along to pen the words to his gospel, he let the aged apostle know he wanted this most vulnerable part of Christ’s earthly ministry published for all the see.

“Jesus wept.”

First he snorted like a Roman warhorse, then he sniffled and sobbed. A lot of folk prefer their Messiah to be all thunder and lightning and calling down of fire. Others can only stomach a gentle and lowly Savior.

With Jesus you get both, but mostly the Jesus you get in the gospels is the One who enters into our pain.

There are two times in the gospels we find Jesus weeping. Here, and in Luke.

Jesus doesn’t just “feel your pain.” He also hates it. He hates what it does to you. He sees the long game, that every eye will be dried one day and there will be no more pain, but he also meets us in our most painful moments with mercy and justice in the here and now.

In “The Lion King” when Simba returns after a long time away and sees what Scar has done to the kingdom, plunging it into death and despair, there is an alarming look of righteous anger that clouds his countenance.

That’s what’s going on just before the dam inside Jesus of Nazareth breaks.

Weeping Jesus sees the enemy of this world wreaking havoc on his creation, disturbing the order. The same emotion Jesus felt when he saw the court of the Gentiles being barred and barricaded by hucksters, charlatans and snake oil salesmen, preventing the people from gathering to worship, is the emotion of this anger he felt outside Bethany. If he had had a whip in his hands he would’ve been swinging it at the enemy.

I’ll follow a God like that anywhere and all the way into eternity.

Selah, beloved.

yikes & yays

Occasionally you’ll find some really good stuff on Xian social media. This was a Twitter thread I ran across,* instantly saw its value to this site, and ‘unrolled’ it to equip and encourage you in your discipleship.

I hope you enjoy Ashley’s colorful take on Peter as much as I did.

So Peter.

Walks on water. Yay.
Jesus says his testimony will be the bedrock of the church. Yay.
Jesus says he’s doing Satan’s work. Yikes.
Argues who’s the greatest. Yikes.
Makes big bold claims for Jesus (I’ll go with you to death!) Yay.

Follows Jesus from a distance. Yikes.
Denies Jesus altogether. Yikes times infinity.
Weeps and repents. Yay.
Restored to Jesus. Yay.
Runs to the empty tomb. Yay.

Makes moves in the early church. Yay.
Falls into fear of man/racism & gets rebuked by another apostle. Yikes.
Writes some letters that end up in the New Testament, helping other Christians not make his mistakes and giving wisdom for how to be a church. Yay.

Many moments in between, he’s putting his foot in his mouth and getting it wrong. In other random moments, he’s getting it right.

(Let’s not forget the Mount of Transfiguration where he literally needs to be interrupted because he won’t shut up in a really important moment, and he’s super slow to what’s going on. Yet another “Yikes” moment. I could go on.)

In all of these Yay-or-Yikes moments, Jesus’s words in Luke 22:31-32 give me hope.

“Simon, look out. Satan has asked to sift you like wheat. But I have prayed for you that your faith may not fail. And you, when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.”

These very words are said immediately before Jesus tells Simon Peter that he will fail! As in Jesus prays for his friend right in the middle of Peter’s absurdity and failure.

And eventually, that prayer did come to pass after a lot of other cyclical failures.

What strikes me is that Peter didn’t have this perfectly linear story. He went through cycles of belief, unbelief, and repentance. He went through various versions of rebuke as he grew. Even as an apostle! This gives me so much hope.

In the end, Jesus’ prayer DID come to pass. The road was rocky, he went through lots of Yays-and-Yikes, but Peter did stay true to his faith in the end, and he did “strengthen the brethren” in his epistles.

And Jesus’ prayer gives me an example,an answer for what I should do if I, or someone I know, is in the “Yikes” season.

I should pray!

I don’t know who in your life is being sifted like wheat, or denying Christ, or in a Yikes season. But let’s pray that their faith won’t fail.

Let’s believe that God has a way of turning Yikes into Yays and with his intercession on our side, he will keep us and convict us and bring us round to resurrection glory.

He did it for Peter. Let’s not act like he can’t do it for any one of us. Let’s pray like that’s our God.

–Ashley Gorman


*Alas, Ashley no longer has a Twitter account, so I’m unable to give a fuller citation of credit to her…but I’m very glad I had the foresight to copy and paste her original thread!

no man takes it from me

Photography ©️ Pasturescott

John 10:17-18
For this reason the Father loves me, because I lay down my life that I may take it up again. No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have authority to lay it down, and I have authority to take it up again. This charge I have received from my Father.”

 

That free and evil men sought and secured his death cannot alter the fact that he knew what they were doing – and let them do it. You cannot murder God. Hold in mind who it was who hung and suffered there, and you will not think of it as martyrdom.

 

If He was a man, it was murder; if He was God, it was an offering.

 

If He was man, it was martyrdom; if He was God, it was sacrifice.

 

If He was man, they took his life from Him; if He was God, He laid it down Himself.

 

If He was man, we are called to admiration; if He was God, we are called to adoration.

 

If He was man, we must stand up and take our hats off; if He was God, we must fall down and give Him our hearts.

 

– W.E. Sangster, They Met at Calvary